Loneliness and its frequent best bud, depression, are a major theme for a growing number of people of all ages. For many it’s because of the continuing social, work, and school restrictions due to COVID. For others it’s because they’re longing for that perfect life partner. There are also some who keep searching for that elusive spiritual connection.
What about you? Have you been feeling lonely and depressed? Have you lost sight of happiness, creativity, and delightful engagement? Maybe it’s time to let go and surrender.
Back in the mid 1980’s when I was living in country Australia, married with two young boys, working as a naturopath in my own thriving practice, with great friends – it appeared that I had it all.
However, I can still vividly recall standing at the living room window of our home, blindly gazing out at my world with tears dripping off my chin. I felt desperately alone without anyone to turn to for help. I knew something was very wrong. I didn’t know what it was or how to fix my life.
I didn’t realize it at the time, but I was smack in the middle of a major life transition and spiritual crisis – just as many people are being offered right now. Some people call this the “Dark Night of the Soul.”
As a 30 something young mother, I’d been questioning everything – my family beliefs and expectations, who I was, how to be a better parent and wife, feeling overly responsible for the health of my clients, still searching for my life purpose, longing for more. All this was churning through my body, emotions, mind, and spirit. No wonder I was frequently in tears or yelling at my kids in overwhelm! With effort I was able to maintain a successful looking outer image. Inside I was floundering.
Through my work, my family, and my spiritual longing, I’d changed and evolved quickly and significantly. Years later with hind sight and help from my Akashic Records, I finally understood that I’d lost myself. I didn’t know yet who I was becoming.
Most importantly for me at the time, I had no idea I also needed to forge a new, visceral, and durable connection with the Divine – what was most sacred and holy to me. (NOTE: Years later, the Akashic Records helped me create the vibrant Divine Connection that I’d been looking for all my life!)
In the midst of the chaos of my life in my early 30’s, a little book with simple cartoons on every other page eventually came to my rescue: “Love Is Letting Go of Fear” by Gerald G. Jampolsky, MD.
It took me a year to read it! An updated version, with a revealing personal note by Jampolsky, was published in 2010.
Each one of his 12 lessons for personal transformation exploded my deep seated beliefs about life.
As I gradually integrated these lessons, I began traveling from loneliness to engagement, from feeling lost to loving myself, and eventually to creating the life I now love.
Remember the saying – “What goes around, comes around?” Sometimes, as you do your inner work, really good stuff revisits for a new personal upgrade!
The inward focus of a year of COVID has gifted me with the introspection and concentration required to read another life changing book: “Letting Go – The Pathway of Surrender” by David R. Hawkins, MD.
The first half was definitely a slog. By the end, I wanted start at the beginning and read it all over again! He even recommends Jampolsky’s book! Hawkins expands the message of “Love Is Letting Go of Fear” and simplifies it into surrendering.
TIP from my friend Rev Louisa Dyer: If you get lost in the verbiage as I first did, go back and read the bottom of page 19:
“The Mechanism of Letting Go
Letting go involves being aware of a feeling, letting it come up, staying with it, and letting it run its course without wanting to make it different or do anything about it. It means simply to let the feeling be there and to focus on letting out the energy behind it. . . . It is resistance that keeps the feeling going.”
Little did I know, this was exactly what I started to do each time I stood in front of the window in tears so many years ago. I finally allowed myself to deeply feel all the painful emotions I’d been ignoring. I continued to do this through my eventual selling of my naturopathic practice, separation and divorce, the heart breaking decision of my two sons to stay with their Dad, and eventual move to Melbourne. Suddenly I was no longer a wife, mother, or naturopath. It was a clean sweep.
All aspects of my life required major change, so I could create the rich new life with my current husband and spiritual partner. My days are spent in deeply satisfying Akashic work that supports my soul growth. I never feel lonely or disconnected.
Definitely, the Akashic Records are my personal resource and safe place where I’m Divinely supported to delve into deep inner work and evolve. It’s still challenging for me to deeply feel an unpleasant emotion without resisting, obsessing, getting in knots about it, thinking of ways to change it, or judging it. I’m learning. When I can let go of a painful feeling, and the subsequent ones behind it, I eventually feel lighter, more relaxed.
Surrendering with non-resistance is process. I love how I am less triggered by others now and love my life more. I look forward to continuing my journey. Would you like to join me?
If you’re attracted to learning to access your Akashic Records or accelerating your Akashic abilities by learning to access for others, then perhaps it’s time to email me. Let’s chat!
I invite you to share your favorite life enhancing books in our comments!
Till next time,
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